Indifference

As someone who often identifies herself based on her loyalty to the handful of people to whom she is loyal, indifference is the saddest possible state. Sad, as in objectively sad. Sad, as in "wow, it makes me sad that I no longer care about this person." Not sad, as in "this person can still make me sad" ~ because that's not indifference, as we all know.

Once someone has my loyalty, I take a long time to get to indifference. A damn long time. And trust and believe, I am very clear about the path our relationship finds itself. No one will ever say of me "but I didn't know; she didn't even give me a chance." I am loyal to too few people not to fight to remain that way.

In time, though, if my explanations, requests, tears, and feelings aren't heard, aren't acted upon, even I, Samwise Gamgee herself, will stop giving a damn. And yeah, that's a sad thing.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.