I Want...

A blogger I read, Rose, over at Lessons Learned, had up a very simple post the other day. It wasn't a meme or a tag. Just a post. It listed a handful of things she wants. It got me thinking...

I want adventure.
I want to find adventure where others miss it.
I want to travel to mundane places and extraordinary ones.
I want the mundane places and the extraordinary ones to be the same places.
I want to wake up next to my dear Lithus more often than I don't.
I want all my family together in one place occasionally.
I want the kids in my life to be happy and healthy.
I want enough money to not worry where the next payment comes from.
I want to get back into my size 12s ~ with the occasional foray into a 10.
I want to see Appsrus again.
I want continued happiness.
I want to laugh.
I want to live life rather than to just mark time.
I want, at the end of it all, to see my father and grandfather.

It's a good list, I think. What do you want?

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Needs Glasses

As I mentioned in my last post, I need glasses. They are really just for reading, driving and computer work but...umm...yeah. This is me, after all. So, apparently, I won't be in my glasses when I'm bathing and asleep. Got it.

However, it is me we're talking about. So I got these:




Otherwise, really, what's the point?

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Doctor, Doctor, Gimme the News...

Sadly, this does not continue with an upbeat love (sex) song. With a stretch of time in Mexico ahead of me, I decided to go get everything medical that might need poking, prodding, looking at, gone over or otherwise examined poked, prodded, looked at, gone over and otherwise examined. Physical? Check. Blood work? Excellent. Girl parts? Healthy. First ever mammogram? Not bad at all (although I get why it could be an unhappy experience for women not of a certain size). Eyes? In need of glasses, but we knew that. Teeth?

Damn.

I've had a hollow feeling in a lower left molar for a while now. Turns out the silver filling I got back when I was ten or something is beginning to crack. Apparently, they have a shelf life and I've reached it. This has nothing to do with my oral hygiene, I am assured. Still...dude...

So give a call this afternoon if you want a laugh because they're numbing me up. Should make for interesting conversation. At least they sent me home to have lunch before.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Standing Up

For those of you unaware, there has been a veritable brouhaha in cyberspace for the past several weeks (bordering on months) that has been aptly named RaceFail09. From what I understand ~ because I don't hang out in forums or chat rooms to have witnessed it in real time ~ it started innocently enough when a discussion arose about white Sci Fi-Fantasy authors writing nonwhite characters. Could it be done? Should it be done? Must it be done? What was the author's responsibility to the POCs' communities to get it right? And then, as so often happens, instead of continued conversation and discussion about race, it devolved. This is the point, for the record, that I became aware of RaceFail09 and started following it myself.

The name calling started. The defensive moves came out of the playbook. The deflection began. Reasonable concerns and responses to the issue were shot down as overreaction, "simple" misunderstanding and (my favorite) ungratefulness. (is that a word? it is now.) I was amazed with the pain and anger that was totally disregarded by authors, that was considered acceptable collateral damage while defending their own right to write shallow, token characters.

Finally, there was the statement that POC hadn't been fans of speculative fiction prior to the internet and insinuation that (in one's best condescending tone) oh it's just so wonderful that they can even be a part of the debate. Which was followed closely by a not-terribly-veiled attempt to take credit for creating fen of color. Which is where Fen Of Color_United was born.

Today, POC who grew up fans of sci-fi, fantasy, speculative fiction, choose your descriptor, long before the internet made it available to them are standing up today to be counted. To say check your priviledge ~ I've been here as long as you have.

Now, before anybody goes and gets really stupid...I'm white. I know I'm white. You know I'm white. I'm also a sci fi reader from way back, raised by a sci fi reader who was raised by a sci fi reader. I once ended up with a boyfriend because I was able to recognize a completely out of context and very obscure sci fi quote. And I'm a writer who takes her craft seriously. Who understands that the whole world and my whole readership doesn't share my skin color or ethnicity. Who understands that I must research and understand POC characters and who gets that I will still sometimes get it wrong. When I do, it's not my place to be offended when my inaccuracies are pointed out to me but to learn and write a better character next time.

And I stand in support.

So here I am. FOC_U.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Lionel Update

Well...

His liver is going bad. His kidneys are going bad. His heart murmur is getting worse. There's something happening with his back legs. The seizure was a grand mal. His cholesterol is sky high (which, in case you don't know, in dogs means there is a major underlying condition).

And yet his spirit is as strong as ever. His eyes are as bright. He loves his cheese, his sunny spot and demanding to be put on the futon. He's as likely to get away from me in the yard as he is to head right up the step and announce he is ready to go back inside.

At this point, the vet doesn't suggest in any way that it is time to put him down. In two weeks...who knows. For now, though, we're hanging out, having lots of mommy and baby snuggle time and making sure life is full of cheese, sunny spots and naps on the futon.




Those are slightly less sad Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Lionel

He isn't doing well. Today was his 6 month check up ~ and he had a seizure. Lithus saw him have a stroke one day ~ but then he was fine. There've been a couple times when I thought "that's not right" but, within 24 hours, he was always fine again, so I thought I was seeing things or overreacting. I guess not.

We're running blood tests. Depending on what they find, we'll do some imagining. But he's sixteen and a half. He's had a great few years with me. I just want him to have a great few more, is all.

We're supposed to go to Mexico to be with Lithus. He's supposed to bask in the warmth of the Mexican sun. I'm supposed to get him doggles for when we are exploring, him in my lap, wind blowing his ears. And I really want him to see Lithus again because he loves his Mr. Lithus. I'm not ready for anything else.

I just bought puppy pads to see us through the end of the month. And a new flat of food. And Lithus has found a store that sells his dog food and checked to make sure the airline will take him in the cabin with me.

I feel very alone right now.

4:13 A.M.

I just emailed my finished manuscript to myself.

It's done.

Yes, there are final edits to be written. Yes, there are sex scenes to be written. Yes, there is punctuation to be double-checked.

Bottom line is, I have written, edited, and rewritten 250 pages in 70 days.

It's done. As of 4:13 A.M. Life's good.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

R.I.P ... and thanks

When Bea Arthur died last week, I thought about posting. She was brilliant and beautiful and an irreplaceable talent. I also knew that the world would grieve her and posts upon posts would be written. Deservedly so. And so they were.

Today, the world has lost another brilliant and beautiful and irreplaceable talent only I doubt posts upon posts upon posts will be written, even though they are deserved as well.

Rest well, Ernie Barnes. The world just became less colorful, less interesting and less vibrant. Thank goodness your work still survives. Thank you for it.




Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee ~ and an amazing legacy.

Questions You Don't Think To Ask

I pride myself on being prepared. My family and I have always been able to discuss what happens in case of serious illness and death. The SGM and I discussed not only what would happen were he to be killed in action but what would happen were he to be captured. I knew my father had a DNR long before the stroke that took his life. The people who need to know, know my wishes regarding medical decisions.

Every now and then, though, one slips by. I remember when my mother brought her now-husband, then not-yet-husband, to meet the family in Colorado. One day, we went to the museum. He said he was going to check out an exhibit on another floor; we agreed to meet up later at another exhibit all of us wanted to see. He left. About five minutes later, the fire alarm went off. We looked at each other and actually laughed. As we evacuated the building, we decided that he was an adult and would find us on the grounds. Sure enough, he did. But when you're all adults, you figure out that yes, you will all meet up in 30 minutes in the Egypt room. You don't think to ask "Where do you want to meet if there's a fire alarm?"

Another time, the SGM was heading out on a deployment and I was to join him in Newport for the last three days before he left. We discussed the things I needed to bring him. I doubled checked that I had my i.d. All was good. Until the attacks on the World Trade Center occured and they closed the bridge to the island and locked down all military bases. You don't think to ask "What's Plan B should there be an attack on US soil?"

Want to know what else you don't think to ask? You don't think to ask "What happens if you're in the country that is Ground Zero of the swine flu that threatens to become a global pandemic?" Nope. That one didn't even make the top 10 list of questions Lithus and I thought to ask each other.

Luckily, he is in a very small town and it is isolated enough that all should be well. He and his co-workers did not get on a crowded bus this morning and travel 3 hours to see the cool city that one of the Mexican pilots wanted to show the others. So they are being smart and responsive with being reactive, let alone overreactive.

Still, you have to laugh. At least I do. Because who expects a global pandemic of swine flu during the only six weeks he's away? Welcome to our world. This is what happens when you combine my life with the life of the one other person whose stories I envy. You get a weird, synergystic swine flu pandemic. Or something like that. But it makes a great story.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Stuff

* Trying to decide if I cut my hair, so it's easier to handle and cooler













or if I leave it long, so it's heavier and thicker but can go into a ponytail and still protect my neck.














* Today, Lithus is in Mexico, swimming in a river, under a waterfall. Poor baby. Go ahead, feel free to pity him.

* This blog is far more interesting and fun to maintain than my professional one. But God, don't tell, please. Because of course Pauline's blog is the best, more fascinating, creatively written work on the internet. *sigh*

* Lionel has started sleeping in a new position. I call him Mobius Strip Dog.


* This morning I had a load of laundry in and had the kitchen cleaned before my first cup of coffee was even ready. I am as shocked as you are.

* High school friendship politics and pettiness is really old after, say, about, high school.

* Fresh fruit is back. Especially strawberries.

* Morning walks are making all the difference in how I view the world, how I sleep, how I feel. Next time I feel like skipping more than one day for less than a valid reason, I need to remember this feeling.

* I don't really like Facebook, although I do understand how it is helping professionally.

* The fact that my favorite local grocery store is open 24 hours really makes me happy. I'm not sure I've shopped during daylight in a couple months.

* Yes, life is this basic right now. But the book's getting written. :)

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Professional Packaging

With apologies to my readers who might see this elsewhere...

I try very hard to present a professional face whenever I'm being Pauline. Casual, relaxed, one-of-the-girls AND professional, at the same time.

A couple weeks ago, I ran a contest on my blog. Due to communication difficulties, the winner's prize just went in the mail today. My post office clerk knows me pretty well and is used to me coming in to mail all kinds of interesting things. Because I am in there so often, he is great about doing what he can to cut my mailing expenses. Today, I had picked up a box that would cost more to send the goodies to my winner than necessary. He dug around back and found another box that, while larger, would still be less expensive. Great! Sure, the box had been used before so it was a little banged up but I decided for almost five bucks and the karma involved in recycling, I could live with a little banged up.

Only by the time we had added the padding to the box, it was suddenly more expensive than the original box I'd picked up and he'd rejected. Never underestimate the power (cost) of .9 ounces! "Don't worry, Pauline," he assured me, "I'll manage it." Ah, the joys of being a regular. So, I paid him and walked away from the counter.

I still needed a couple of things so didn't leave the store immediately. Instead, I made the mistake of looking back over to see him "managing" it. He was mauling the inner flaps of the box, ripping them up, in order to lose the extra weight. Ummm.... Hm. By this time, I had paid and he had saved me money. "But it's unprofessional" just seemed, well, ungrateful. Still, it would be interesting to be a fly on the wall when my winner gets her goodies ~ in a banged up, reused and mauled USPS box.

Sometimes you just have to laugh.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Um....

So, yesterday there were huge numbers of protests around the country. People brought tea bags. Lots of history here, obviously, plus they were wise enough to incorporate a very modern acronym: T.E.A for Taxed Enough Already. Only...someone, somewhere dubbed it "teabagging." So all these protesters spent all day yesterday...teabagging their legislators.

Um....Are you gonna tell 'em? 'Cause I'm not gonna be the one to tell 'em.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Lip Sync For Your Life...

...and don't fuck it up.

As you may have gathered from the post immediately preceding this one, today was a rough day in my writing world. A frantic phone call to Crow Mother was followed by an equally panicked email to Dennis R. Over four hours and innumerable emails later, I was less frantic, less panicked, had things back in perspective, had a plan and a mental road map. I was also fried. Burnt out. Done.

This isn't the only stress in my world right now. It's just the most urgent stress. That doesn't mean the rest of it isn't stressful or always right there, simmering on the back burner. So yeah ~ I was done.

What I realized was I work very, very hard. Usually, I also play very, very hard. Recently, there's been no play. At least not very, very hard play. I needed a reset. I needed to blow out the stagnant air in my brain and start fresh. There's not a lot of money right now. It's not only Sunday but it's Easter Sunday (a Pagan and a Jew walk into a bar on Easter...) so options are limited.

We called Flora and went bowling. Yep. Bowling. With Flora. Sounds like a great game show, doesn't it?

We were loud. We were inappropriate. We both amused and slightly frightened the family in the next lane. We sang and danced and boogied and wiggled to the videos playing. And then, just as it was my turn, it came on the video screen.



I cannot tell you how many hours I have spent playing Magenta. At parties. In movie theatres. In theatre theatres. In front of my own and my friends' televisions. At overnights and slumber parties. To not perform the song would've been sacrilege. So I did. Standing at the top of our lane, dancing, performing, doing the Time Warp (again!).

My hair was flying; my choreography and lip sync were spot on. At one point, I heard Flora say "this is why I have such a hard time remembering she's shy." Lithus has informed me people gathered in the door of the room to watch and one guy even pulled up a chair. My focus was on Lithus and Flora. And resetting my brain.

It worked. I feel great. I feel creative. I know my characters and their stories and as soon as I hit "publish post" I will write them. Guess I didn't fuck it up.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Oh Dear.

I think the book may be boring. Well written with great, fully developed characters, mind you. Just...boring.

Hmmm...

Need to find a way around this and quickly.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

How It Works

A comment from Graziella and an event last night made me laugh this morning.

I used to live on the 3rd floor of a three-family in MA (for those of you who don't know that phrase, it's a three floor building with one apartment on each floor and shared front and back stairwells). After Graziella moved out of the second floor (which is how we met), two young men moved in. One was a conductor on the commuter train from Worcester to Boston and the first train left at 5:17 a.m. I was writing Falling In Love and Business Words at the time.

The Conductor would leave home about 4:30 to go to work. When he walked out his back door, he would sniff. If he smelled cigarette smoke, he would lean over his balcony and look up. If I heard him, I would lean over my balcony and look down. "Good night, Pobble" "Good morning, Conductor. Have a good day." "Have a good sleep." And he would start his day as I was finishing mine.

Lithus has been moving a bird from the west coast to the east coast. He needed to be up at 3:45 this morning. So, at 12:45 last night, I called him. "Good morning, Lithus. This is your wake up call." "Good night, Pobble. You get a good night's sleep. I'll see you in a couple hours."

Because that's how it works sometimes.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Writing on Writing

My next novel has a deadline of June 1. We're grateful for June 1 because it originally looked as if it might be April 15th. Now, I could've made April 15th ~ but tears would've been involved. There very well may still be tears with June 1. There definitely would've been tears with April 15th. See, the more I write on this story, the more of this story there is to write.

I haven't bothered to edit or re-read at all. That's Crow and the Divine M's job. I'm just writing. Get it written, get it finished, take the last couple weeks of May to edit and rework. That's the plan.

I have given up trying to stay in touch with my friends, keep a clean house, participate in life outside of being Pauline. Luckily, I have very understanding friends and a husband (*giggle* ~ I still like that word) who is willing to wash out my coffee mugs.

And I've learned some things. I really do need to compose initially in long-hand. Yes, it takes twice as long. Yes, it is a pain in the ass. Yes, I really need to do it. And I can't write in silence. But the background noise has to be very specific background noise. Music is great when I'm transcribing from my notebook to the computer. Preferably WBCN streaming in from Boston. For actual composition, though, I need what I call "slightly more intelligent than not television." Mostly, that means dramas. Mostly that means House. NCIS. Special Victims Unit. CSI. Hmm...that's it really. Anything else is distracting. Even other shows in that same general genre. I tried to say (very self-importantly) this is my writing time and this is my writing space and thus spake the author that she will not be disturbed. Yeah...not so much. Now, I turn on the television, find the reruns, curl up on the couch with my notebook, pen and coffee, and write.

I'm also having to find time to actually be Pauline. She guest blogs. She has book signings. She runs a facebook page and her own blog. She gets emails. She's even running her first contest over on her blog. (Check it out ~ you can find it by clicking on "Pauline's site" over in my Places You Should Go links. The drawing will be random but the goodies will be good.) It's surreal as hell. And takes up more time than I'd expected, quite honestly.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not (NOT) complaining. Mostly, I'm loving every minute of it. It's just new and different and taking some getting used to. And y'all are where I work through it all. So thanks. For keeping me sane. For knowing and loving me before I became Pauline. For hanging out and sticking with me through the ride ~ even though I won't be around as much (and will be very singleminded when I am around) between now and June 1.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

I'll Take It

Timber's been in a spot of trouble recently. Most of it, ordinary teenage stuff. Some of it, not bad right now but needs to be nipped in the bud before it does become more than ordinary teenage stuff, because it could go away ~ or it could become really anti-social. Lithus and Timber's mom have been trying to keep Timber completely in the loop, all three of them meeting together so everyone can hear what is being said. Until this spot of trouble. This spot of trouble heralded the beginning of the time that Lithus and Timber's mom needed to meet just the two of them.

Turns out she's not crazy. Turns out she's not abusive. Turns out Lithus isn't emotionally and verbally abusive. Turns out I'm not an overly strict evil stepmom who uses him as a slave. Turns out none of us are actually behaving the way it is being reported we are behaving. Turns out Timber reports hating Lithus and me as much as he reports hating her. Turns out he's painting us with the same brush he's been painting her.

Turns out, we're all turning into pretty good parents. Because if he hates us all, we're all doing something right. I'll take it. I bet Lithus and Timber's mom will, too.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

From the Lovely Cats

My deadline was extended to June 1 (and not even at my request!) but it's still keeping me wicked busy, which means I don't have much time to write anything new. Therefore...

Finish the sentence.

1. MY EX...is an immature person who doesn't get it

2. MAYBE I SHOULD..... stop procrastinating and write that article

3. I LOVE....my life

4. PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT I AM... interesting

5. I DON’T UNDERSTAND...more than I could ever list here

6. WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING... I need coffee

7. I LOST...the last game of Quiddler I played

8. LIFE IS FULL OF... life

9. MY PAST TAUGHT ME... I can survive it (whatever it is)

10. I GET ANNOYED WHEN...people are stupid

11. PARTIES ARE... small, intimate events that I love

12. I WISH... I lived in Boston, still

13. DOGS ARE...cute enough

14. CATS ARE...fine

15. TOMORROW IS...Thursday

Those are Pobble Thoughts, with a little help from the Lovely Cats. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Why the Tie (Booksigning Post 2)

As I mentioned last week, Crow Mother and I had spent a good deal of last Tuesday planning what I would wear to the book signing, the night it was originally scheduled. We decided on a black, stretch pencil skirt, black sweater with a fake fur collar and my baby doll patent leather pumps. The look is smart and sophisticated, with a bit of a 50s pin up girl edge. Pauline is definitely smart and sophisticated with some kind of an edge.

Scroll down to the post below this. Go ahead. (doo bee doo bee doooooooo....Back? Excellent.) Bet that didn't look like a black sweater or kinda 50s pin-up girlish to you, did it? Yeah...

We had to leave the house at 5:05 p.m. At 5:05 p.m., I was climbing into the Pobble Mobile. Yay! When I felt a rip. Boo! I jumped out of the jeep, lifted my coat and demanded Lithus tell me what had just ripped. Sure enough ~ it was the seam of my skirt...all the way up.

So I go tearing into the house, stripping as I storm up to the bedroom. Now, since my outfit has, at this point, been planned for a week, everything else I might feel comfortable presenting Pauline wearing is either dirty or unironed. Plus, it's pouring rain. And the longer I stare at my closet, the later I am getting.

The second option Crow Mother and I had come up with was a pair of black pants and sharp white shirt. The pants in question are dirty BUT! My black pinstripe pants are clean and have spandex in them. I shook them out hard and called it ironed. Only to discover that all my white dress shirts are dirty.

You know one of the best things for women about being married? The second wardrobe.

I grabbed Lithus's white dress shirt out of his closet, rolled the sleeves and threw on an armfull of bangles to spiff it up a bit. As I'm leaving the bedroom, I say to him "I wish I had a skinny black tie." A flick of his wrist later and I have a skinny black tie. We even got it on me without too much drama (although the words "you're the man; you're supposed to know how to do this!" did come out of my mouth, much to my embarrassment. I've decided the Pobble is a loving and wonderful wife; Pauline is a real bitch. digressing...)

And we walked out of the house at 5:17. Twelve minutes total. To put together a look that got raves all night. *whew* When clusterfucky ends well. ;)

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Wow

wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow

It was So Freaking COOL!

I've made Lithus tell people about it because I really don't remember much of it. Just that it was So Freaking COOL! Everyone was very nice. The woman in charge facilitated nicely and kept things moving. People were really interested in my story, the book's story, and my story about the book.

It was So Freaking COOL!


I'll try to compose a more coherent description but I make no promises. Mind you, I've got another one this Friday so maybe, the first one just needs to be So Freaking COOL and the next one can be coherent. ;)


Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Rescheduled to...TONIGHT!

My first booksigning is tonight. Tonight.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pobble Hop Pobble Hop Pobble Hop

My dear Lithus is home and will be there.
Mom my sent these:


And seriously, how gorgeous are they?

I have my pen.

I'm ready. Borders book readers, here I come. :)

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Procrastination

This is going around my writers' group because no one can procrastinate like writers.

The rules...

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the hero/heroine name question.

1. What is your name: Boston Pobble

2. An author's name: Elizabeth Peters
3. A hero's name: Phillip
4. A heroine's name: Patience

5. An occupation for a Hero: pediatrician
6. A Romantic Location: Paris

7. Something a hero gives a heroine: pearls
8. A romance novel title: Piece of her Heart
9. A Romantic Food: prosciutto

10. One word describing last romance you read/wrote: pat

Gotta love a good time suck.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

No Capes!

Coolness can be found here: Hero Maker

Hmmm...interesting...the Pobble and General Spectacled Nine Tails have never been seen in the same room together. I wonder...

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

*********

Amended much later this evening...

Timber and I were IMing just a moment ago. We decided we would noodle around with the Hero Maker. In completely different houses, many miles apart and even, technically, in different states, we came up with these:

Could explain why we get along so well, don't you think? :)

Those are still Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you another coffee.

Update

The book signing was rescheduled. Humph.

On the one hand, this is a little disappointing. Crow Mother and I have spent this afternoon emailing back and forth, trying to decide what Pauline's look is, what I should wear, blah, blah, blah... A friend in the town where the signing was (will be) had preordered pizzas for us to munch ahead of time. Plus, there was just the generalized adrenaline, which is now... *poof*

On the other hand, it has been rescheduled, not canceled. They had a date in mind (same time, same place, next Tuesday) when they called me and were willing to work around my calendar had that date not worked for me. The woman facilitating the meeting was so sick, I was thinking please tell me you're rescheduling this because I don't want whatever it is you have as she was explaining the situation. And the one that should have topped this list ~ Lithus should be home by then. It should play out that I have him and my new, cool-o book signing pen.

So, it's definitely a both-and situation rather than an either-or situation. I'm both disappointed and pleased. Ah, that human condition that never ceases to amaze me.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

It's the Little Things

I love presents. I admit it. Winter holidays, my birthday, anniversaries...whatever. Getting presents is really only trumped by giving them. Presents are just way cool all the way around. But sometimes, presents are cooler than other times. Like when you aren't expecting them. Like when they are little and unimportant to anyone but you.

My first book signing is Tuesday night (AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!). After not flying for months and months, Lithus has been called to work. Yep, he will miss my first ever book signing. No matter how many other book signings he gets to attend, we will be apart for the first one and nothing can change that. *sigh*

I asked him to please, at least, get me a special pen so that I could sign my books with a pen from him. He bought me two, one that feels good in the hand and one that just "screamed Pauline."



And he's right ~ the one on top feels better in my hand, while the purple one is more my personality (and Pauline's). Still, I think I will go with the one that feels good in my hand. The other is cute but would get annoying after about three signatures. I will, however, keep it handy as a spare. I'm hard on nibs and I know this.

However, he brought me something else. I do a lot of editing and critiquing, both of my own work and of other people's. This is always ~ always ~ done in pencil. I require a very sharp pencil or else it, too, feels strange in my hand and while writing.

I don't have a good pencil sharpener. I have a cute pencil sharpener. It's in the shape of a dachshund and looks remarkably like the Daisy baby. It doesn't work. I have struggled with my Daisy baby pencil sharpener through several manuscripts now. Not out of any strange sense of loyalty or sentimentalism but just because I never think to get a new pencil sharpener while I'm out. It's not until I'm sitting with a dull pencil and nothing but the Daisy sharpener that I remember I need a new one. This is not helpful.

Along with my pens for my signing, Lithus gave me this:



The pens are wonderful. I love the pens. The pencil sharpener made me cry.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Listen to the Silence

I'm alone in the house.

Lithus is at a job interview (a story for another time); Timber is at school. I'm alone in the house.

Now, Lithus and I are both the kind of people who need some time to ourselves. However, I work from home and he doesn't have an office to go to when he's not flying. He hasn't really flown since September. This is a lot of together time. And you know what? I had no idea how much together it had been until just now, writing this post, which must be why we got married. Still, part of why it works is that we are both really great about understanding when the other needs some alone time. Neither is offended by the other disappearing into the office, the bedroom or the bath tub without the other. A walk or a drive or a visit with friends is practically de rigeur.

But that's different. That's giving the other some space or taking some breathing room or hanging out in one's own head for a bit. That's not the same as being completely alone in the house. Which I am. Until sometime after 3:00 today.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh... Just...listen.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

6 Weeks, 300 Pages

Oh boy. It's about to get busy here again. For a year now, my agent and I have been waiting to hear from my editor and publishing house about the proposal for the next book. We haven't heard. And we haven't heard. And we haven't heard. No contract. No feedback on the story. No rejection. No...anything.

I've been panicking because what if they don't like the story? They were really really eager to publish another book with me. But what if they don't like the story? I told them it would be done by February 2009. (Please note, we are now past that date. Remember this as it will be important later.)

My agent hasn't been panicking at all. Honestly, I don't think she's quite believed that they were so eager to publish another book. I can understand her reticence. All she has is the reports from a new author that a renowned publishing house and the holy grail of genre editors wants to work with said new author. And no shit. What new author wouldn't want to believe that aforementioned pub house and editor are falling all over themselves to work with her? This doesn't mean it's an accurate assessment of the situation and I do get that. No wonder agent hasn't quite believed it.

So, I've been saying "but it's due in Feb" and agent has been saying "don't write it until we hear from them." And I've been saying "but it's due in Feb" and agent has been saying "it's not though until they've accepted the proposal ~ which they haven't. Don't write it until we hear from them. You'll have 8-12 months once we hear back, if they buy it." And I've been saying "they were really into this trilogy and I said it would be ready in Feb" and agent has been saying "no pub house will publish a second book in a trilogy if they don't own the first one and we haven't heard back from editor. Don't write the second one until we hear back." And I've said...You get the idea.

Last week, I got the first email from my editor that I've received in a year. She needed plot and character description for the art department because they are going into cover design. Cover design. For a book that hasn't even officially been contracted. For a book they have not read a single word of yet. Cover design.

Um....

So, once it sunk in and Lithus and I did the Happy Husband Dance and Pobble Hop respectively, I started to panic a bit. I have asked my agent to get me six weeks. Please oh please, she can get me six weeks. Because I've gotta write about 300 pages. In six weeks. For a book that's gone to cover design.

Surreal doesn't even begin to describe it.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

But Don't Fool Yourself

As glorious as the wedding was, it was also my wedding, which means it also looked like this:









Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

It (More or Less) Sounded Like This:

Pobble And Lithus

February 22, 2009
Midnight

Introduction and Declaration of Intent

We gather here tonight to honor relationships: the relationship between Lithus and Pobble, the relationships that we have with them, and the relationships that we share with others in our lives especially those who love Lithus and Pobble but could not be here physically tonight and especially those whom Lithus and Pobble love but who are gone from this life: RoseAnna, Rex, Roark, and all the others who have helped shape them into the people that they are.

Each of us has a unique relationship with Lithus and Pobble; after all, they are unique people. It is what has brought us all together now as friends and family of these two people who are so important to us that we might offer our blessing to what they are about to do.

Lithus – Pobble, that you found each other means that there is something both very right with the universe and something slightly askew which is exactly how it should be. So as we honor the wonder of your love for one another I ask you…

Lithus, will you take Pobble, the person that she is and the person she is yet to become, to be your wife, to love her, cherish her, and care for her? Will you be her partner, her friend, and her lover? Will you laugh with her and cry with her? Will you stand beside her and support her in all that life brings until you are parted by death?
I will

And Pobble, will you take Lithus, the person that he is and the person he is yet to become, to be your husband, to love him, cherish him, and care for him? Will you be his partner, his friend, and his lover? Will you laugh with him and cry with him? Will you stand beside him and support him in all that life brings until you are parted by death?
I will
And those of us gathered here with Lithus and Pobble will we promise to love, support, and care for these two people in their lives together?
We will.

Exchanging of Vows and Handfasting

This is a sacred thing; it is made sacred by the love and commitment that Lithus and Pobble have for one another. We celebrate this sacred love because it has pulled the two of you together. It has wrapped itself around you and has refused to let you go. It honors the fact that each of you is a unique and whole person; you don’t need the other to be complete in who you both are. Instead this sacred love has found a way to tie you each other in bonds that don’t constrict or hinder either of you from being who you are but instead these bonds make you stronger because they hold you together.

It is sacred love that has brought you to this moment of commitment and promise to one another. So with hands bound I invite you to speak those words of love and commitment.

I promise to love you Pobble in all that you are and support all that you have yet to become. I will stand by you for all of the things that the universe offers us, whether they are good or by your back when they are not. For all that we are now and might become together, I offer myself to you as your partner and your friend.

I promise to love you, Lithus, for everything you are and everything you will become. I promise to be honest with you, to share my dreams and goals, while supporting you and yours. I will stand by your side when times are good and at your back when they are not. For all that you are, all that I am, and all that we can be together, I offer myself as your partner and friend.

Giving of the Rings

May these rings be an ever-present symbol of the joy and love you have in one another.

Announcement of Marriage

Lithus and Pobble, it is my honor to pronounce that by the promises that you have made this night you are now joined together as husband and wife.

Smooching, Hooping, and Hollering

It Looked Like This:

The most perfect cake EVER and the ideal bridal bouquet (staying fresh during dinner)

No one does this better than the Lovely Cats. No one.

Lionel in his tux, Dr. B. and Flora.

My mom and D were there, too, only they were the ones taking the pictures so we don't have many of them, sadly. Still...it was the perfect wedding. As Nemeria put it, it was a gothic Alice in Wonderland wedding. Isn't my family beautiful? Yeah. I think so too.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Wedding Ramblings

I know, the wedding has taken over Pobble Thoughts recently. Only, I'm mostly alone out here so you, dear Pobble Readers, are standing in for my Girlfriends. Thanks.

I had to pounce Lithus this morning because I was so excited. He took it good naturedly, which is one of the many reasons I'm marrying him. (to pounce ~ to cover an unsuspecting, often sleeping or drowsing, person with kisses and snuggles)

We wrote our vows last night. We made each other cry. This is a good thing.

Thoughts on registering (and not ~ not ~ a complaint, just a sociological observation)...there were two groups of people (of those who had an opinion): those who wanted us to register and those who agreed with our decision not to register. Most people wanted us to register so we finally registered. Interestingly enough, we have only received gifts from two of the people who wanted us to register. Everyone else who has gotten us something have come from the group who agreed we didn't need to.

My mother and her husband arrive tonight. The Lovely Cats arrives tomorrow afternoon and Dr. B. tomorrow night. I cannot wait.

My flowers, as designed especially for me by Flora, are going to be magnificent.

I am indescribably happy (even as I freak out a bit).

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Watch Your Language!

When giving an unsolicited compliment, from now on I will be sure to get the phrases in my head correctly before I open my mouth. See, if you are thinking both:

"Your cooking rivals any Iron Chef's"
and
"Your cooking is the envy of any Iron Chef's"

it could very easily come out:

"Your cooking envies any Iron Chef's"

which wasn't my point at all.

When the compliment isn't about cooking but is about a...certain body part...it's even worse. And a real moment killer. *sigh*

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

When Clusterfuck-y Ends Well

I've had a post saved as a draft for about four days now. The title is "Clusterfuck-y", which is my new word. Because the wedding got clusterfuck-y.

Here's what you need to know from the saved draft:

We had our officiant. He is a wonderful, amazing man who didn't flinch at marrying a Pagan and an atheist, who has performed LGBT ceremonies in the past (an important qualification for this activist), who was willing to incorporate my beliefs and Lithus's nonbeliefs into a beautiful ceremony. Then there was a death in his family. The memorial service is scheduled for our wedding day ~ six hours away. Hm. Clusterfuck-y.

So we started brainstorming. He suggested Friday night which made a light go on for Lithus. What about midnight? Everybody loved it. It is actually the only detail of the wedding that Lithus has really had an opinion about, he is so excited. The only person coming from the east coast arrives at 8:30 pm. She'll have time to get to the hotel, change and be at ours with oodles of time to spare. Wedding at midnight Friday and wedding feast with champagne and cake (CAKE!) Saturday evening.

Yesterday, I got an email from the Lovely Cats. She's coming. She can indeed make it after all. Oh. My. God. And thank the Goddess. What is her itinerary? She changes planes three times, travels for something ungodly like 16 hours, all to be here for 36 hours and see us married. She arrives at 11:30 pm Friday. Hm. Clusterfuck-y.

So I get in touch with our officiant who suggests his wife (also an amazing person, just not our first choice). I get in touch with his wife. She has an all day event and won't be up to a midnight wedding on Saturday. Hm. Clusterfuck-y.

Now, at this point, I admit, there were tears. There were frustrations. There was chocolate. After which, I was once again able to think productively. See, here's the thing about the Lovely Cats...she's an ordained minister! And here's the thing about Washington state: "ministers from any state can perform the wedding ceremony but the ceremony must be performed in Washington state." Whoo-Hoo! So, I call the Lovely Cats.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"Um...when you get here, how'd you like to perform the wedding ceremony?"
"Oh no ~ are you serious?"
"Um...yeah."
Of course she's doing it.

You know what else? Our wedding anniversary will be February 22nd. First, that makes it 2/22. Neither of us will ever have any excuse to ever forget our wedding anniversary. Second, it's Edward Gorey's birthday. We're having a black wedding cake. Lithus is wearing black. I'm wearing burgundy and black with black lace and corset ties. Our wedding cake topper is a pair of ravens. We're getting married at midnight. AND it's Edward Gorey's birthday????

The truth? It's better than we'd originally planned. Hm. Not so clusterfuck-y at all.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

An Early Valentine's Story

Have you heard about this?



Estimates are that millions of animals have died in the Australian fires. And you know me ~ give me an animal over a person any day ~ so I have been working on being hard about it, sighing and moving on, without letting myself care too much.

Until I heard this: A firefighter, named Mr. Tree, found a koala that had survived the horrific fires in Australia. Her paws were scorched and she wasn't doing so well. The firefighter gave her water. Although koalas are usually not overly friendly or approachable, she actually put her burned paw into his cold, wet hand for some relief and drank three bottles.


The koala was taken to an animal shelter, where she was named Sam, treated for her burns and dehydration ~ but not as much dehydration as she would've been had Mr. Tree hadn't found her. He was even able to come for a bit of a visit.



But my favorite part of the story is Bob. Bob is another scorched koala survivor of the fires. He and Sam have become quite the couple. The workers at the animal shelter say they have a "muchness" between them. This must be an Australian phrase but I really wish it was here in the States as well. In this case, it means they both appear to be about the same age, they have been through similar trauma, and they both have "that burned smell about them." I think that describes more of us than we'd probably care to admit. And yet these two wonderful critters are here, have found each other, and have a muchness between them, burned smell about them and all. Because isn't that what it's about, really? May we all be so lucky.



It's enough to soften even a Pobble's heart.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Because I'm Getting Married Next Week

Why has my entire jawline exploded with acne that is resisting every solution known to humanity?

Why have plane tickets that have been reasonably steady in cost from the east coast to the west coast skyrocketed in price?

Why have my roots grown out faster and more noticeably than ever before?

Why is the first time my roots have grown out this quickly and this noticeably also the first time I really can't afford to get my hair done?

As I said in a comment to Krystal ~ stressed? Who's stressed?

Sometimes you just have to laugh.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Knock, Knock. Who's There?

Ex-Boyfriend. Ex-boyfriend Who? The One You Broke Up With Two Whole Relationships Ago!

Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Or something like that.

I actually wrote him back this time. Told him about all four books under both pseudonyms and let him know I was getting married in two weeks.

The betting is open if I will get a terse email, a drunken rambling email extolling my virtues while still managing to insult me somehow or if ~ just maybe ~ this will be the last I hear of him.

What can I say? I'm hard to get over. :)

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.

Please Note: Raven

From Denny, over at the Chronicle because, yeah, I have time for this kind of thing. But he's right; it's spot on.

Your result for The Golden Compass Daemon Test...

Gruff Soul

You are a bold and fearless person, with a strong sense of self. People, especially people who don't know you well, might think that you are unfeeling or callous, but your loved ones know that you are a loyal and fierce friend. Your loyalty does not come easily, though. People need to earn your affection and respect.

You like to be with your favourite people, but you don't have much patience for the rest of humanity. Even your close friends and family can drive you crazy some times, so you need your space from them every now and then. You often hide your feelings behind offensive or rude jokes, and you rarely let your true feelings shine through. If an emotion does shine through, it is likely to be masked as aggression or through a joke.

Your daemon's form would represent your clannish, loyal nature, your self confidence and your aggressive, joking exterior. He or she would probably help you mock the people whom you dislike and disrespect.

Suggested form:
Hyena, Coati, Maned Wolf, Raven, Dingo.

Take The Golden Compass Daemon Test at HelloQuizzy

And ...

(1) Is there​ anyone on your friends list you would have sex with?​

There is actually.

(2) Sex in the morning,​ afternoon or night?​

Yes.

(3) Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?

I have actually but not from drinking. I had a bad reaction to meds. It's still just as embarrassing, though.

(4) Have you ever taken ​your clothes off for money?​

Nope.

(5) Shower or bath while​ having sex?

Shower.

(6) Do you want someone aggressive​ or passive in bed?

Yes.

(7) Do you like someone in your friends list?​

Um...why would they be in my friends list, otherwise? I even like people who *aren't* in my friends list, 'cause I'm radical that way.

(8) Love or Money​?​

Love.

(9) Credit card or cash?​

preferably Debit. :)

(10) Have you ever wanted a best friend?​

Can this question be any more vague? I have a best friend. Two actually. I want both of them. I lust after neither.

(11) Camping or a 5 star hotel​?​

Oh please. 5-star.

(12) Where ​is the weirdest place​ you have had sex?

Hmmm...outside.

(13) Would​ you shave​ your entire body (​Inclu​ding your head)​?​

Why would I want to?

(14) Have you ever been to a strip​ club?​

Of course.

(15) Ever been to a bar?

Ummm...who wrote this?

(16) Ever been kicked ​out of a bar or a club?​

That's still under debate by those of us who were there.

(17) Ever been so drunk​ someo​ne else had to carry​ you?

Sadly, embarrassingly, yes. There has been staggering in my lifetime.

(18) Had sex in a movie​ theat​er?​

Surprisingly no.

(19) Had sex in a bathr​oom?​

Yes.

(20) Have you ever had sex at work?​

not at *my* work

(21) Ever been to an adult​ store​?​

Even when I wasn't working at one

(22) Bough​t somet​hing from an adult​ store​?​

Even when I didn't have an employee discount!

(23) Have you been caugh​t havin​g sex?

Almost

(24) Does anyon​e have naugh​ty pics of you?
Nope.

(25) Ever had sex with someo​ne and calle​d them by the wrong​ name?​
No.

Those are Pobble Thoughts. That and a buck fifty will get you coffee.